I would like to be in tune with my body. The worst thing about feeling like shit is not knowing why you feel like shit. You spend the day indulging in multiple vice to the point that all the bad feelings become a haze. You're not sure whether it was the shit you ate today or the shit you ate the day before, but you're certain that you feel like shit.
Because this experiment cuts out the majority of my vice, it becomes much more clear. When I feel tired, I know it's because of the ten pieces of gum I had in the first half of the day. When I feel good, I know it's because I didn't chew ten pieces of gum and I'm staying hydrated. All unidentifiable chemicals are bad, but sugar is the killer. It just destroys my energy and who knows what the one's I can't pronounce are doing to me.
Unfortunately, my brain has been wired in a way to associate intense pleasure with these flavors. I like almonds, but their flavor just doesn't kick my brain into overdrive like a caramel latte does. It doesn't give me that intense, short-lived high. Instead, it gives me a longer-lasting, more level good feelings. But, it's never that high, but at the same time, never that low. I can definitely see the difficulty in kicking something like heroin. You're life is so much better without it, but in normal life you will never experience happiness as intensely at any given moment. Once you've experienced that intense joy, normal life can probably be pretty boring.
I think I should start meditating.
Since Latte's have a high amount of fat from the milk and the amount of sugar, if you get a flavor, are probobly the biggest reasons you are craving the sugar. you are dropping 500 or so calories from your "diet" so your body is probobly trying to replace that with the sugar cravings. Sounds like you might need a snack or a small meal to replace the latte. I like Lara bars. they are high in fat but because it's all nuts and whatnot. I'm partial to the cherry pie.
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