Relapse

Today I had my first minor relapse. On my first break I had a white mocha and pretty much paid for it the rest of the day. For the first three hours of so I didn't feel too bad, but the last couple hours of my work day were really difficult and I was especially irritated. When I got off of work and finally got home I just collapsed. I pretty much haven't accomplished anything tonight other than this blog. At the time, I just really had to have that white mocha, but I'm going to try to use this experience for tomorrow to help me avoid it. Everytime I think about relapsing I'll think about how I feel when I give in and how it affects the rest of my day, not just the time being.

When you stop eating sugar you eat less?

I was talking with a friend of mine a while back. She mentioned something about when your blood-sugar shoots up you get really hungry.

Today, I didn't eat very much. When I went to Sushi Land, I only ate four plates. Most of the time I easily go through seven or eight, even if I ate something only an hour earlier.

So, I guess there is some truth to that.

I am not a fanatic!

By cutting refined sugar out of my diet I would like to say that I am not a fanatic. It is not my desire to put people off with polarizing ideas. I'm am not in the business of blowing peoples minds.

I will still eat the occasional cheeseburger, even though the bun has refined sugar in it. I will continue to eat Asian food when many of my favorite dishes have sugar in the sauce.

I want to cut out foods that are blatantly made up of sugar of almost nothing else. I am not a fanatic...I am just doing what is right for my body.

The time has come...

So, I had my little experiment and then got back into the addiction of mass consumption of caramel lattes and the like. Now it is time to bring this blog back to life for the purposes of bettering my life. Us human beings are very self-destructive. We will continue to do things to ourselves that we know aren't helping us move forward.

But, rather than being a 30 day experiment this blog is going to become a vehicle of self-progression and self-perseverance. Instead of drinking just water, it will be about eliminating the majority of sugar from my diet. By sugar I am not referring to the natural kind that is found in fruit, but rather the processed kind that comes in sodas, lattes, snack foods, etc.

This is going to be really, really hard for me because there isn't really an end day in sight. It's a lifetime goal. Though, I don't really expect to never relapse, I expect to make it a mission to immediately get back on track.

I'd also like to clarify that my main offender in this lifetime goal sugar, not caffeine or anything else.

Here's to will power and self-improvement.

Day 30: The End

The experiment has finally come to a close with great success. Probably the most common question I've gotten over the past week is "what do you think you got out of it?" Well, to rehash some of what I've said already in this blog...

1. More focused and decisive

2. More energy. I don't crash after work everyday.

3. Longer and better quality sleep. I don't wake up as much during the night.

4. I'm more calm and less anxious. Even when work gets stressful I remain unbelievably cool and don't let things get me upset.

Hopefully, If I could give anything to you (the reader) from this experience is the motivation to try it out for yourself. You'll be surprised what you thought you needed. Obviously, things like coffee and soda aren't good for us. I don't think there is any debate over that. But, I would take it a step further to say that milk and juice aren't that necessary. In fact, dairy all together doesn't do that much for me. It's hard to digest and is more likely to make me tired which is the side-effect of bad digesting.

This, momentarily, ends this blog. I hope you enjoyed it and perhaps I'll bring it back to life again someday.

Day 28: Cheating in my dreams

As I near the end with a little more than two days left, I've found myself trying to justify a little cheating. I haven't. Though, I have several times in my dreams. I wake up thinking that I still drank that coke. It takes me a couple of minutes to realize that it was just a dream.

I'm giving serious thought into making the internet the next vehicle for my experiment in self-deprivation, which would mean no blogging. Oh well. I need to finish another album anyway.

Day 21: 2/3

I'm sure anyone who has been reading this blog might sweat a bit with such a long lapse in time between blogs. Does this mean I gave in? No, I haven't. I'm still on track and have passed the two-thirds marker.

Certain times of the day and the weekends in particular are when I have my strongest moments of want. Consider that every Saturday and Sunday morning for the past three years have been spent walking over to Peat's Coffee in the morning to get my latte. It kind of becomes a habit.

So, if I still have the cravings how long will it take for them to disappear? Though, I guess I would have to completely give up sugar to be completely free and be able to lose the cravings. I assume.