Relapse

Today I had my first minor relapse. On my first break I had a white mocha and pretty much paid for it the rest of the day. For the first three hours of so I didn't feel too bad, but the last couple hours of my work day were really difficult and I was especially irritated. When I got off of work and finally got home I just collapsed. I pretty much haven't accomplished anything tonight other than this blog. At the time, I just really had to have that white mocha, but I'm going to try to use this experience for tomorrow to help me avoid it. Everytime I think about relapsing I'll think about how I feel when I give in and how it affects the rest of my day, not just the time being.

When you stop eating sugar you eat less?

I was talking with a friend of mine a while back. She mentioned something about when your blood-sugar shoots up you get really hungry.

Today, I didn't eat very much. When I went to Sushi Land, I only ate four plates. Most of the time I easily go through seven or eight, even if I ate something only an hour earlier.

So, I guess there is some truth to that.

I am not a fanatic!

By cutting refined sugar out of my diet I would like to say that I am not a fanatic. It is not my desire to put people off with polarizing ideas. I'm am not in the business of blowing peoples minds.

I will still eat the occasional cheeseburger, even though the bun has refined sugar in it. I will continue to eat Asian food when many of my favorite dishes have sugar in the sauce.

I want to cut out foods that are blatantly made up of sugar of almost nothing else. I am not a fanatic...I am just doing what is right for my body.

The time has come...

So, I had my little experiment and then got back into the addiction of mass consumption of caramel lattes and the like. Now it is time to bring this blog back to life for the purposes of bettering my life. Us human beings are very self-destructive. We will continue to do things to ourselves that we know aren't helping us move forward.

But, rather than being a 30 day experiment this blog is going to become a vehicle of self-progression and self-perseverance. Instead of drinking just water, it will be about eliminating the majority of sugar from my diet. By sugar I am not referring to the natural kind that is found in fruit, but rather the processed kind that comes in sodas, lattes, snack foods, etc.

This is going to be really, really hard for me because there isn't really an end day in sight. It's a lifetime goal. Though, I don't really expect to never relapse, I expect to make it a mission to immediately get back on track.

I'd also like to clarify that my main offender in this lifetime goal sugar, not caffeine or anything else.

Here's to will power and self-improvement.